Smile to motivate, Laugh to inspire!

People always tell me : " You look like you don't have any problem, you are always happy."  OR "How can I be happy like you?"

If only they know the reason why I always want to smile, why I always want to make other people happy.  Then they would realize how heavy the responsibility is.  But I'm doing it anyway.  I guess it is my only share in this world.

So why do I look happy?

The world has a lot of negative energies.. So negative that if you focus on them, they would bring you down.  I have experienced living with a person with a lot of negative things in mind, and believe me... It was like living in hell.  Her cursings drive me mad, her loathing about her life demented me, and her unwillingness to be happy stressed me to a point that I almost gave up.

Living far from my family is already a burdensome for me, how much more is living with a person with a negative personality.  That is really a challenge. 

Then I realized, why will I let her bring me down?  Will I be a better person if i be grumpy like her?  And what will my co-workers feel about me?  Will I allow them to suffer like me by being harsh?  What will my students get from me?  Hatred??  I would not allow that to happen!  Over my dead and beautiful body!

So I smile.. laugh.. I mean burst into laughters and make everyone laugh too.  Coz a smile will encourage people, help them brighten up their day, ease some of their pains in life, take the negativity that they are feeling, make them feel the comfort of friendship, or even make them feel loved and accepted.

So everyday, as soon as my eyes open, I would tell myself, KHAYE.. you are a teacher!  You will be dealing with students who would look after your every move, every actions and would listen to your every words... So be responsible!  You are a co-worker.. and your responsiblity as a person is to encourage them to work happily, not bring their emotions down.  Its like God is telling me to shower happiness to HIS domain that everyone would see that beneath the dark clouds lie a silver lining.

That is why, no matter how tired I am, no matter how depressed I am (yeah, I cry when i am alone), no matter how frustrated I am, I still manage to smile... the most natural and sincere smile I can give to anyone who needs it.. its like me telling them.. "Hey cheer up!  God is taking take care of what's bothering you!"

Photo taken from the Lantern festival with my co-teacher.